Scribbles

Always waiting and waiting so long for his blog,

m started to mould~

But i'd used to it...so what's the point dick...

i thought today m goin to study hard,

cuz i have to go back to hostel today actually,

but by virtue of ...

urgh,

...i hate to tell the reason,

it makes me sad once again.

I intend to conceal it well inside my heart,

but he requested i must be honest to him...

so...guess what?

Goin to tell the truth la, how i feel la! what~

I want to go back quickly because i really want to study!

U asked me to study hard,

so that we wont separate easily,

m worried bout that too,

i know i wasn't an intelligent or a genius,

i work so much harder compare to the others

so that's why i came to this level,

m different...

but because of that,

i own much than the others...

i know how it feels,

how when i goes hardwork feels,

the feelings are extremely good!

And now...i have to wait one more day.

that's not what i planned!!

and i lost a day to study...

i know, i dont have dedications.

i've lost it,

last year steal whole, too greedy.

Now left zero for one.

& What m madding is,

maybe i'll go alone,

alone to mutiara,

alone taking bus to kepong jusco...

all alone...

but...

m not scare!

No...

i can go by myself,

what's the matter?

But u just dont...dont even...

you know what that kinda hurts a lot.

I dont want to go because of it...

But i dont want to b a FFKw.

I tried so hard...

so hard to calm down myself,

so hard to cheer my mood up

and use the gud mood to chat with you

cuz i know u'll like it much!

Only that way can grab YOUR heart...

Phht...

And now...

Err...

Nothing.

I watched Wild Wild West.

My mood's now happy.

Hmm...forgotten the old sad thing.

...

You know what i hate?

I hate when m questioning you

and waiting your answers,

you dont bother me.

Hey at least lah tell me what r u goin to do, man.

I hate dummy a lot la.

Well...

m not scolding you...

Just tried to vent out my feelings

and be honest to you.

Now m tottaly fine.

What i need is your caring,

bout how is your ulcer?

are you okay?

still feeling well?

try to miss me and you'll be okay.

Like that....when m not feeling well.

Uhhum...

Well...

About your family.

OMG.

Tell you something.

Since i was a kid,

i dont scare for uncles aunties,

i dont scare or panic to talk with them,

to chat to share feelings...

M a super duper triple ...

anti-THEM-less to THEM.(WT* m talking about...==)

If you found i dont talk to them,

that means i hate them

or i found they're super intelligent that detecting me,

...i'll only chat well to those really

sharing and talk nice to you...

Except this time...

i feel....really really really...

NERVOUS.

One of the main reason is,

you non-stop praising how ...

grisly, how powerful...

ahh duno what words should be
the most suitable to describe it...

how strong your mom is...

OMG m really going to faint.

Phht....

Have...

you...

finish...

your...

blog...

?...

Urghhh....

Tired....

Energyless....

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