I'm back to my old place finally after so long.
I'm kinda miss this place, a place filling with part of my memories.
I started to chase back those posts who I followed
and whenever I see it, my feelings rage, surge...
because this is the place where I belong
I've got stories to see! I've got stories to tell!
And here's the emotional place
the only place that anyone can show them naked,
tear out their masks, a filling heart, hearts with scars.

I miss the old days
Now, I'm a grown-up. I start working.
I'm no longer a student.I feel like crying.
I hope there's someone can listen to me.
But, guess what, everybody's so open-minded and mature now,
everyone is telling me: Life still goes on.

I know. But where're those people with mere believe?
Don't act like you're OKAY with it. No! You're not!
You're actually sad with this truth! Then?!
Give yourself some space to admit it! We need balance!
That's what we usually do when we're young, we have to keep young, are not?

It's just the matter of balance, we will not overly used it right, we will stop, eventually.

So just lemme cry a minute. Yea, I'm done.

对于自己的愚蠢，真的不可置否。

那些不坦白，那些不情愿的实话，
那些被看成是负担的爱，那些不想被拆穿的内心，
那些欺骗，那些过往，那些你想要的自由，
那些所有。。。

假如，我当初能够选择他，
我做人的结局，是不是会比较不一样？
是不是我现在会比较快乐？

一个面子书，就让我尝到了痛彻心扉的滋味。
我恨，我恨为什么你要做那么多让我变成今天这个样子，
不愿意承认是因为自己的愚蠢自己对你的爱，
因为我认为我的爱应该被珍惜而不是被践踏。 

现在明白已经太迟，即使现在我选择他，
已经伤害了大家的前途，
因为我和他中间也有一个他。

后悔吗？会。
因为我被伤害得很重、很重、很重。
最痛的是，到了此时此刻，我还不能放下你会对我说谎的戒心，
更不能有你会完全把你自己给我的安全感。

挫败吗？这个女朋友，除了没有办法信任自己的男朋友以外，
也被这个男朋友看成是另类人。
大家看着大家的眼光，无终止的误会猜疑。



这段关系，是怎么样的结局，什么是对是错，我已经无从下定。

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1) What you want me to do? Read journals? I need that paper last time Miss corrected, you have? (Problem statement)


2) Don’t touch my Monster Sullivan!! :(


3) Now I only want to study MUET for speaking test and also including brainstorming for points, but I can’t concentrate at all.


4) I hope I can play Tetris Battle.


5) I also want to correct the paper, but no point, correct inside the files is better, writing on top of the paper is just wasting the time.


6) Okay, it’s almost Asam Laksa time, 9pm the latest, I am craving. Stop please the meeting, stop!


7)  This note is so suitable for my blog today.


Then it ended up being posted in my blog. Goodnight.