Of the MistakeS

I knew i done something wrong, something absolutely tremendously a big mistake i've done...but if you ask me to make a choice once again i wont change my mind too...

today, i went to Mid Valley together with VIVI , i'd told my parents i'll go out with THEM...
then i predicted everything goes well until we'll date till night, maybe 7pm or 8...
but unfortunately, dad's goin to a dinner he have to fetch me earlier....at 5.30 6 the utmost...
i was so fussed up and fret....why always last minute i cant decide anything...
then we have to rush back...then our date ends with this...
OMG what the * is that....

but VIVI's advices reminds me not to do something bad or say something harsh to my parents...
yes he's so thoughtful...he's right...he made the right decision...i respect his decision...
so i chose not to SPEAK BAD to them, i calmed down...

so then we bought KTM's ticket, but when we saw the situation at the station we all get shocked...there were covered with black heads...oceans of HEADS...we're stucked!!
Finally we get into the KTM but bad things happened...I can predict it!!
we were all crushed in been piled and been squeezed like mashed potatoes....
you know what...VIVI's holding my hands of course...but that cause him to lost something...

Yea, that's my fault...
the next station reached but he's trying to lose my hands...
i felt unsecured, and so hold tighter...
but i couldn't even realize he wants to take back his HP!!
Jesus!!
M so remorse...

well...but fair to see...
since the 1st station is reaching, the KTM's moving, and we're all squeeze like sardins,
so i cant avoid the BASTARD CRAZY GROSS DISGUSTING DICKHOLE FUCKING PERVERT that molest me!! what i can do is just carrying my bag to protect but my hands cant move it stucked!
i was so helpless...he's beside me but m helpless...spaceless for us to move a fingernail...

and...so...VIVI contact his family immediately...
after that...the KTM system were SUCKS la, problems occured and we stucked inside at least one hour!! Fortunately the BLARDY BUTTHOLE CHICKEN STUPID ASSHOLE ...DISAPPEARED with H*LL!!so...what can i do?just ask them to go back la...
and then mummy calls , she said dad can cum at 8.30 something...

you know how F**kin mad i am!!If they could told me earlier...those wouldn't happen!!
Okay...maybe i shouldn't said that cuz it hurts i KNOW i know!!
i would be hurt if i heard so...but ...fine...it's a fate....

things that wouldn't happen, included ....what m i gonna tell now.

we arrived segambut KTM around 7.10...
the rain is kept falling...non-stop....
we're waiting the rain to give us some chances to go home,
but seems ...guess not.
Like everything goes...
predestine.
I swear, i did not lie to daddy when he SMS me at 8.10pm
we wait until 8.30...
i knew i cant reach hostel at the time and daddy say so he's not coming to fetch me
cuz it's late
i asked him not to worry
he really doesn't need to worry bout me m sure bout that
dad, i did not lie to you...trust me.

but then we hardly caught a taxi at the dark night
we caught at last...
we stop at Mutiara.
It's late...it's about 9pm.
I thought we're going back to sch, but they said...
DANGEROUS.
Yea...m the cause...
so it's better we stay inside Mutiara.
They used to go CC, i went before...
just a lil' bit smoke smells, i can stand it...
than taking the risk to go back to the hostel through the dark and fearfull path...
but...
i have to make sure dad and mum know that m safe.
So i lied.LIED.LIED.LIED.
i said i arrived hostel dont worry...
m just...need them to know m not worry.
but i stumbled, miscarriaged.
i never thought of WARDENS, they may list down the hosteler that stay for days...

and ...an hour before...i received a call from my home...
not just a call...but totally 6 calls.
i started to worry.
But the call comes with weird ways....
disconnect fast and the next call comes fast...
i hope there's just problems with my house' phone...

...
...
...
i knew i'd done mistakes, big mistakes.
i think the WARDEN made calls...
how...
what m i gonna do the next step...
VIVI's here with me, he told me not to worry he'll stay beside and behind me...
but...
dad and mum sure'll be sad...
m sorry mummy...sorry daddy...

just like what TSL said...
they'll lost the trustworthiness to me...
...
m just...
dont want to let ya'll worry...
m okay here...
m planning to sleep here...
at least m safe...

daddy, mummy...
i wish m home tonight ...
and say...
goodnight dada mama.